After eating a piece of the turkey leg, at an instant I was full. It was so weird. One
minute, I felt like craving for an entire buffet, and now I was as full as any other time I
was actually stuffed with food around me. That’s when something weird started
happening. I felt sick. And so I immediately ran into the bathroom, the downstairs
bathroom and opened the toilet. I felt like vomiting, but I didn’t, I just kept putting my
head in the toilet in case I had to. Suddenly, I heard a knock on the door. It was Linda.
“Umm daddy, are you alright in there?”
“Yeah, I’m fine honey. I’m okay.”
“Just want to make sure, you sound a bit funny?”
She then left, that’s when it happened. Her footsteps were echoing hard in my
head. All of a sudden my ears went into overdrive, like I was Superman with super
hearing. I tried covering my ears, but it hurt so much after, that I thought my ears were
actually bleeding at the worst. I looked into the mirror, and yet I looked fine. I then tried
to talk, but my voice apparently sounded like a child’s voice a bit, yet it was still me
talking. I couldn’t understand what is happening to me. Maybe if I sleep, I’ll feel fine
tomorrow. Yes, that’s it; it’s already almost 9 anyway. A goodnight’s sleep should make
me feel better, I guess I’m just taking my wife’s death so easily now, that maybe I
overtook it too personally. I admit that I did try to bottle up the emotions, but I talked to
people, and I learn to move on with my life. I could see a psychiatrist tomorrow, and
explain to him or her if there are things that maybe bothering me, that’s a good idea I
thought.
I then went into my room, and changed into my pajamas. I went to the bathroom
and started brushing, that’s where I found Susan. Right there on the cup was my wife’s
toothbrush, and beside that her make-up kit. I couldn’t think of the time what should I
actually do with Susan’s personal belongings, I couldn’t be disrespectful on throwing
them away. But I didn’t actually want to touch it, yet. No, I said. I have to give these
things away, maybe Linda would want her mother’s things or, I don’t know I’ll have to
think about it a while until I can actually decide. As soon as I was finished brushing my
teeth and washing it out with mouthwash, I headed back into the bedroom, I was getting
tired, and it seems that headache and hearing problem were already starting to heal. The
moment I opened the door, I found Linda sleeping in my bed, she was fast asleep holding
her favorite teddy bear, which I gave her on her 4th birthday. I decided it would be okay
for her to sleep with me for the night, I mean she is my daughter. She was still upset a bit,
and so was I a bit, also. We needed some comforting more than ever, if we wish to
resume back to our old lives. I got in to bed and kissed Linda on the forehead, as I too
drifted off to sleep.